Wtf do I do?! I am so confused!?

Ok my boyfriend is really weird. Idk what to do I have a high sex drive and masterbation don't work for me. At all! But my boyfriend doesn't. I swear to god its pretty sad that I literally have to beg for sex. I have tried every "spot" you can imagine, I will even start to give him head and he will push me away and say stop. I only get laid when he wants it (which is like if I am lucky once a month). WHAT DO I DO?!